The time I said "I'll be more organised next time" and then I wasn't

I don't know about you, but I end every semester of uni after a stressful marathon of completing assignments at the last minute telling myself sternly - 'I will be more organised next time'. And I mean it. I really do. There is no way I plan on allowing myself to go through that chaotic, anxiety ridden, binge eating situation ever again. Ever.

And then I do. 
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It's a horrible cycle that I just cannot break. You'd think after 3.5 years of study I would have come to the realisation that that is just how I roll. But no. I set this high expectation of myself to be super organised, listening to every lecture and having each assignment done a month before it's due. And then I fail my own expectations. And then I feel miserable. And then I eat chocolate when I should be working on my assignments. 

Or I watch Youtube videos and get sucked into a vortex. I happily spend hours in this vortex of watching other people's lives, when I should be focusing on, you know, living my own. 

Or I nap. I wish I could say that this is only a recent thing because #newbornlife, but it's not. Hiding away in my bed is my best defense mechanism against productivity.

Or I tell myself I've simply been too productive and I deserve to do anything but work on that assignment.

Of course, I have legitimate excuses I use all the time such as "I worked all day" or "I have a two week old baby who doesn't sleep unless I hold her" etc. But, if I'm being honest with myself, I have overused those excuses. We've all overused our excuses at some point. No judgement. Just shame (for myself and my wasted potential or whatever my mother would say . . .). 

And now, with one more semester of university to go (hip hip hooray!), I have fallen into the same trap yet again. After a marathon 72 hours of completing pretty much every assignment for the semester (the lowest I've fallen, I'll be honest - #newbornlife), I have once again sworn the same swear - that I will most definitely, with absolutely certainty, not do that again.

Knowing full well that come this time next semester, I will be doing exactly that.

Wish me luck.

Let me know how you manage to remain productive in your every day life. Give a girl some tips PLEASE.
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xx
Me